I didn’t get the permanent position for the state job. I am really taking it hard which is surprising because
a) I didn’t think I was going to get it and
b) I don’t even want it.
I left work as soon as I found out. I called Farrah and told her what had happened, and that I needed a couple of days off. She was surprisingly sweet about it.
Truth be told, loves, my nerves are frayed. I couldn’t sleep last night. I just feel humiliated. I can’t believe I am going to have to go and face my coworkers who decided that someone else who doesn’t work here can do a better job than I can. And you are not allowed to express anger or resentment at work. So I have to shake this off in the next 36 hours so I can act professional.
I did have the other interview that I blogged about. So I am not exactly back at square one. It was an awkward interview though. It is a defense position working with indigent clients. At one point, this very distinguished looking interviewer expressed concern that I didn’t have more experience working with the population that they service. I almost blurted out, “But Lady, I am totally RELATED to your population!” One little law degree and my white trash roots are all touched up.
Obviously, I needed to regroup. So here is how I spent my day off:
- Went for a jog for the first time all winter
- Continued applying for jobs via my 30 resumes and 30 day challenge
- Joined the Women’s Bar Association
- And watched the Fighter. It was totally inspiring and made me feel like I could get it together, and “Do IT for Lowell!”