I just wanted hi. I’m still here. There are some posts in the works. What has held me up is that I have been fighting a battle with depression.
I’ve been joking that it is because I turn 40 and that is part of it. I guess everyone deals with existential crisis from time to time.
There is something else. I don’t talk about it a lot, but I have hinted at it. I have a history of trauma. My father was an alcoholic and very violent. I grew up in a different time and place, and no one ever intervened on my or my family’s behalf. I do think that if he acted that way in Boston today, we would have been taken away from him and my mom. It was that bad.
I still deal with the aftershocks all these years later.
I really didn’t mean for this to be a serious post. But it is what has been going on. And just when I was starting to feel better, I got hit with a bad cold. So it’s been insanely busy at school, depression and then sick. So this semester has kind of sucked.
But it’s almost over and I have been feeling better physically and mentally. I’m excited for Christmas. I’m excited to have this semester nearly over. I’m excited to be a mom again.
I’ll be posting soon